In yesterday’s post I stated, “If I am dying to self so that He is increasing in me and the Him who is increasing in me is greater than the him that’s in the world, then I shouldn’t be a person of self-doubts because there shouldn’t be much self left to doubt, only more of Him in me in which to have faith and confidence…” Well, tonight I had the opportunity to act on this Truth. Isn’t God good? Not to mention He has a wicked sense of humor.
I arrived at 3pm this afternoon in the production room of my church to do a run through for the 5pm service. I operate a still camera. As I looked around the room at the familiar faces of other volunteers, absent was any face that had ever ran camera 1, the close up shot of Pastor Steven; the camera that has to stay high, tight and constantly focused on his Holy Spirit filled rapidly moving head and shoulders. After some quick mental gymnastics I realized that I was the most experienced camera operator in the room. Oh, boy!
I had always shied away from camera 1 because I have enough stress in my life and taking on new challenges wasn’t on the current version of my bucket list. Did I mention that thousands of people watch the message on the online experience each week? I thought about running away but I wasn’t close enough to the door. Then suddenly a peace washed over me and Scriptures appeared in my mind like in the bubble above a comic figures head. Greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world. (1 John 4:4); I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13); Scriptures that I just wrote about yesterday. Normally this scenario would have made me very anxious, but not this time. I felt calm and confident, however it wasn’t confidence in me; it truly was confidence in the One who is in me.
So I just said to Jesus, “Ok, this is on you. Don’t mess up.”
While the execution of the camera work wasn’t perfect (Jesus has started a good work in me, but He hasn’t finished it yet), the overall experience was very positive. I did fine, but more importantly, God gave me the courage to overcome a fear with faith in Him. He gave me the opportunity to act on His revealed Truth and test Him on it. He gave me a chance to prove Him faithful.
And I did. Again.